July 29, 2007 (my anniversary!!)Â
This is my first experience for having a child go off to camp for more thanÂ a few days.Â My oldest, James, who is 14, just left this morning for Cadet camp and is going to be gone for three weeks.Â I can’t believe that it’s that time already and I’m hoping that the next few weeks fly by without any problems.Â Most of all I hope that he has a great time and keeps in touch!
This is such a great opportunity for him that I’ve been telling him the past few weeks how happy I was that he’s going and that I can’t wait for him to get there.Â However, this morning while I waited for him to load on the bus and the rain was pouring down, it took everything in me not to just bawl.Â He’s so grown up, and looked so handsome in his uniform and wedge.Â He wasn’t even going to hug me good-bye, being the man that he is.Â But I did manage to get the ‘lean’ so that was good enough for now.Â I am trying to stay strong now because his little sisters keep asking where he is and when he’s coming back.Â
He’s going to be learning a lot about physical education and recreation and should come home with his license to referee soccer.Â I gave him some money and a calling card so he can contact me anytime he wants.Â I can’t imagine being selfish enough to keep him home or to keep him from experiencing something like this, but it’s tough.Â We teach our children to be independant and then wonder why they don’t need us anymore.Â *sigh*.Â He’s a great boy, though, and we are very close and talk about everything and anything.Â I’ll miss him!
June 15, 2007Â
My five year old, Nicole, graduated from kindergarten last night.Â I expected to be emotional, but it was too cute to be mushy.Â They all stood so tall and so proud, that there were no tears shed from any of them.Â Of course, they still had today to be together and they had a bowling/pizza party to look forward to.Â However, when I picked Nicole up today and told her that if she had anyone she needed to say good-bye to, to do it now, she became quite sad.Â Her big blue eyes were so wet and so ‘tell me it isn’t so’ that I found it difficult to hold back my own tears.Â I can’t believe that ten months have gone by and it’s over now.Â She’ll go to school in the fall and will no longer be home every day.Â Makes me so sorry for the times I wished I could have an afternoon to myself and not have to entertain her.Â What kind of mother wishes those things?
My youngest is still with me, though, so I”m going to keep reminding myself how fast Nicole grew up and how precious this time is to have her home.Â She and I spent the afternoon together (Nicole stayed at Nanny and Grampie’s house) and we played in her little pool and I pushed her on her swing.Â It was really nice just to be with her and it was a beautiful day today too.Â
Tomorrow should be interesting.Â I’m going with my oldest, James, to Summerside to go gliding with the air cadets.Â I’m going to put my name down to be one of the *cough* brave parents to try it alongside their children.Â My son, in true teenage form, asked me nicely not to embarrass him, so I will do my best to do just that.Â haha.Â Nah, I won’t torture him too badly.Â He’s a good kid and will finish school next week – and goes into grade 9 next year.Â Empty nest is creeping up on me.Â
Have a great weekend all!!Â Think of me in the air tomorrow and pray I don’t let go……..or, even worse, embarrass James.Â haha